Mar 12

Nostalgia

I’ve been caught

by a strange Catch-22

a malfunction of the psyche

I have everything I’ve always wanted

the things I dreamed about

and yet I long for the past

and I don’t know why

My dreams are haunted by people

who never spoke to me

who never cared

My memories vivid with idle childhood

the bright colors and smells

the intense emotions

hopes and dreams and fantasies

conveniently hiding the dark anxieties

how I used to cry myself to sleep

holding my breath

wondering if I would ever be missed

Now

I have everything I’ve ever wanted

but I feel empty inside

because I’ve seen the horrors of the world

because I know I can never truly fix it

because I know that hope and faith is never enough

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